WHAT IF I TOLD YOU…

… of faith, naturally.

This could have been the paragraph where I drop subtle hints about the plans that I am making and the reasons that I am coming to the conclusions about needed changes in my life… but that would be too easy.  The truth is that there is still fog on the path… I am taking steps that I cannot be sure they are going to land me where I “want” to be… but the whole point behind trust and faith is to believe that you will always land where you “need” to be, and with an open mind, that the “need” becomes a “want” as well.  So in keeping with the tone I like to set both for myself and anyone who might actually be reading this entry… I want to express that the point behind the leap is natural and not in the least bit unexpected.  It is time to change, and when it gets down to a cyclical frustration with situations, the changes have to become about releasing something  I am holding on to… and this usually means that they are based on fear.

There are two parts of my life that are transitioning.  One I am currently transitioning out of and the other I will be as soon as I have a few more pieces of the puzzle in place.  Neither are working  as they once did and although many attempts have been made to work out a different perspective within the parts (and, naturally, within myself) it became obvious that I need to walk away and move on to different challenges.

I believe in challenges with all of my heart and soul.  When something isn’t working as I would like it to I don’t subscribe to a selfish need to fix it and make it be only what I want it to be…  many of the challenges that I didn’t want turned out to be the ones that gave me the most in the end.   It is human nature, however, to be wary of situations when they begin to take advantage of the strengths (or perhaps weaknesses) that an individual possesses.  When the challenges become blind and blatant and no longer provide me with growth, experience or pleasure… I reserve the right to question the motives or the challenges themselves and look down different paths to discover whether or not I may have strayed off of the proper one that will provide me with the fullest of my own life joys. Although it feels like sour grapes… it is important not to take people for granted, no matter what type of relationship it is.

In the case of the situation I am already transitioning from.  The mere decision to move on has provided me with peace, happiness and love.  Sometimes relationships are broken, be they with people or with things.  Letting go can be cathartic and life affirming.  Life requires an inventory be taken from time to time.  The path should be afforded a bit of feng shui…. allowing for new and different growth experiences by discarding or moving the ones that may have outlasted their purpose or power to affect the positive results ALL challenges richly deserve to afford.

What I do with the second piece is something I must still figure out in its entirety.  This is where the leap of faith comes in.  I must recognize that nothing… absolutely nothing happens on my own time.  I must trust that I am doing what I need to (and want) to be doing while I remain in the fog of confusion that some of these situations can install.  In the end I will step into what I am supposed to be doing.  I will see the path far more clearly and perhaps even understand the point of the confusions I experienced… more importantly I will remember that everyone I meet upon it is there to potentially teach me something.

Just knowing that, to me, is about stepping into optimism.  No good comes from any other way of thinking.  With that in mind I am going to step into February (as I complete this in the last moments of January) with a new energy and positive “leap.”  Some of the situations and people will not have changed… so, once again, I must do the work myself.  But then I wouldn’t expect anyone to do it besides myself… the end result wouldn’t be as rewarding.

Onward.

Be Happy.  Be Well.  Be.