WHAT IF I TOLD YOU…

I have the time, the space and the ability to change and although I do not hold the key to everything on my path… I can illustrate a desired map….

So how does one draw a map to the future?

The first suggestion would be to use a pencil.  Decisions based on emotion with a touch of intellect and hopefully a dollop of experience will tend to evolve, develop and sometimes change completely.  One thing I want to be sure I don’t do is to put on a pair of blinders in the assessment of where I have been and where it is I *think* I should be going in the time ahead.  In other words… I may think I know what I want but the chances are that there is something I am not (or possibly would not) consider in advance.  It is actually very interesting to note that many of the things that I hold dear to me now (or have enjoyed the experience of in the past) were not something I would have considered for myself.  Some I may have definitely NOT considered.  That is why I must draw carefully and be able to erase.  If I don’t add something out of fear, the unknown or some form of pre-judgment I am possibly illustrating an incomplete picture of the future.  Room must always be available for the things one does not expect.

I could easily say that 2009 was a troubling year for me.  In some ways it was.  I know it was a time of internal struggles and aggressive desires for change and growth.  I dealt with a lot of stresses and at times began to wonder if my health was in trouble because I was not dealing with certain situations in the proper ways.  Even sitting here tonight I know that there are things I want to do and be… and pieces of my puzzle that I want to change or completely let go of.  I don’t have the answers as to how I will accomplish these things but I do have the willingness and the platform to question, dissect, research, dip in my toes and learn to my hearts content.

I could also look favorably at 2009 because no matter what I may have set up for myself in terms of the illustration from a year ago, I have grown in leaps and bounds.  I am a different person and I would expect nothing less from a soul that wants to continue walking UP on the path and not backwards or sideways (although either / or may be the proper destination in order to make the changes that will be a part of the path that I am walking towards…)

In 2010 I have learned more about myself.  I have strengthened some key relationships and opened up myself to be a better person in them all.  I have taken down my walls effectively allowing new people in and now I await the cues for stronger and deeper relationships with them and others in the year to come.

In 2009 I spent a lot of time doing what I love the most.  I traveled to London, Amsterdam, Paris, Madrid, Munich, Cannes, back to London, to New York, Sydney & Melbourne Australia, back to New York and, now, I am back in London for the THIRD time in a year.  This is nothing to complain about.  I am honored and I am grateful for the opportunity to be seeing the world I live in.  I hope and believe that the year ahead will offer me similar and possibly more opportunity.  I am illustrating out on the map and I will set no expectation.

As I walk through this wonderful town this time around, however, I have seen something in myself that I am not sure I thought I would get to with my travels.  The next time I am in London I would love more than anything to share it with someone.  I have traveled here extensively on my own and I know this place upside and down.  It would be awesome as a part of my new year of adventure to be able to find the right person who really wants to share it the way I do and have them go along for the ride.

Seems plausible.  I have my candidates in mind.

All I know is that 2010 is going to offer up a whole new destiny for me.  I don’t know entirely what that means or what it holds… but intuitively and innately I know.  My assessment of what is to come is built in trust.  I trust myself.  I trust my future.  I trust my path.

And I look forward to it all.

Be Happy.  Be Well.  Be.