…That a break is a time to reassess the road ahead?
I have the time, the space and the ability to change and although I do not hold the key to everything on my path… I can illustrate a desired map….
So how does one draw a map to the future?
The first suggestion would be to use a pencil. Decisions based on emotion with a touch of intellect and hopefully a dollop of experience will tend to evolve, develop and sometimes change completely. One thing I want to be sure I don’t do is to put on a pair of blinders in the assessment of where I have been and where it is I *think* I should be going in the time ahead. In other words… I may think I know what I want but the chances are that there is something I am not (or possibly would not) consider in advance. It is actually very interesting to note that many of the things that I hold dear to me now (or have enjoyed the experience of in the past) were not something I would have considered for myself. Some I may have definitely NOT considered. That is why I must draw carefully and be able to erase. If I don’t add something out of fear, the unknown or some form of pre-judgment I am possibly illustrating an incomplete picture of the future. Room must always be available for the things one does not expect.
I could easily say that 2009 was a troubling year for me. In some ways it was. I know it was a time of internal struggles and aggressive desires for change and growth. I dealt with a lot of stresses and at times began to wonder if my health was in trouble because I was not dealing with certain situations in the proper ways. Even sitting here tonight I know that there are things I want to do and be… and pieces of my puzzle that I want to change or completely let go of. I don’t have the answers as to how I will accomplish these things but I do have the willingness and the platform to question, dissect, research, dip in my toes and learn to my hearts content.
I could also look favorably at 2009 because no matter what I may have set up for myself in terms of the illustration from a year ago, I have grown in leaps and bounds. I am a different person and I would expect nothing less from a soul that wants to continue walking UP on the path and not backwards or sideways (although either / or may be the proper destination in order to make the changes that will be a part of the path that I am walking towards…)
In 2010 I have learned more about myself. I have strengthened some key relationships and opened up myself to be a better person in them all. I have taken down my walls effectively allowing new people in and now I await the cues for stronger and deeper relationships with them and others in the year to come.
In 2009 I spent a lot of time doing what I love the most. I traveled to London, Amsterdam, Paris, Madrid, Munich, Cannes, back to London, to New York, Sydney & Melbourne Australia, back to New York and, now, I am back in London for the THIRD time in a year. This is nothing to complain about. I am honored and I am grateful for the opportunity to be seeing the world I live in. I hope and believe that the year ahead will offer me similar and possibly more opportunity. I am illustrating out on the map and I will set no expectation.
As I walk through this wonderful town this time around, however, I have seen something in myself that I am not sure I thought I would get to with my travels. The next time I am in London I would love more than anything to share it with someone. I have traveled here extensively on my own and I know this place upside and down. It would be awesome as a part of my new year of adventure to be able to find the right person who really wants to share it the way I do and have them go along for the ride.
Seems plausible. I have my candidates in mind.
All I know is that 2010 is going to offer up a whole new destiny for me. I don’t know entirely what that means or what it holds… but intuitively and innately I know. My assessment of what is to come is built in trust. I trust myself. I trust my future. I trust my path.
And I look forward to it all.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be.