WHAT IF I TOLD YOU…

Nothing concrete to report quite yet… but I know what I know.

We all know that change is constant.  Where we are… what we think… what we do and know… it is all constantly in flux.  Even through the routines of our day the changes are everywhere.  New people, new challenges, new knowledge, new hopes and fears…

…so why then do you suppose I have spent so much time in my life these days craving a change in my life?  Is it somehow negligent that I don’t recognize the advantages of where I am and the changes that are already occurring?  Isn’t it true that to look for change is to not experience the moments you are in?

They say that you should be careful what you wish for.

I have often pondered the outcome of a grand desire for change.  Looking for a major shift in one’s life might best be done with a bit more of a specific goal in mind.  To put out to the universe that you would REALLY like a change could give you a loss that you would regret.  The last thing you want a major change to do to you is put you in a position to want another major change… or worse yet… to go back to where you were when you were wishing the last one.

Then, of course, there are the specific requests for change that don’t necessarily turn out the way we grandly envision.  Let’s face it… we are architects in spirit… in speech… and with the written word…. but can I actually accurately plot completely what each change will entail?  If I could I probably wouldn’t have waited until this point in my life to do such a thing.  I’d be there deciding what change I wanted next and just doing it.

So why not just do that?  Why not be specific and illustrate the changes step by step?  We have choice.  Most any change that is desired can be realized with the gumption of simply taking the appropriate step in the general direction of whatever it is that you want to change.  Sure, there are going to be consequences… whether positive or negative.  There is never an action without a reaction, never a “test” without a result.  Is life worth the risks that we take or should we simply sit back and wait for the results that we want to experience without the dangerous actions that might be required?

My life has changed so many times I cannot even count them all.  In some instances the change was so monstrous that I would not recognize the person  I was prior to it having happened.  In others the changes have been subtle and nuanced… like maturity or recognition.  All of  it was exciting and revealing, the good and the bad.  Some of it was forced upon me without invitation and the most exciting has been the leaps of faith and honest adventure into the future that I have taken on several occasions in the past.  They all worked, whether instantly or in hindsight.  They all took me to new levels of being and happiness… even if some of the route was lined with fears of failure.

I wouldn’t “change” a thing.

So am I changing right now?  Yes… intensely.  I am seeing the world that has been routine for me morphing into something entirely different that isn’t necessarily something I want to commit to.  I know from experience that bold moves are not my answer in this sort of situation.  But I also know from experience that I am to trust my gut and the fact my gut is screaming is that if there is change thrust upon you it is not such a far cry to see it as the point in a path that an “out” can be achieved or pursued.  If perhaps everything that I have been doing is going to be shifted it would be more advantageous and personally exciting to start over with something completely new rather than going back to the drawing board where I currently sit.  It is not a statement of failure or of giving up…  not by a long shot.  The fact is that everything I have been and done in this situation has been successful.  Sometimes, however, success is not a design for decision… especially when the decisions are being made by those who haven’t necessarily made that success in the first place.

My life IS changing.  I have made a decision.  2010 is going to be a ride.  A roller coaster?  A speed boat?  A convertible on a beautiful day?  A nice long plane trip?  Time will tell what the path has in store.  What I do know is that having made this shift of choice within my own psyche is providing me with the happiness that we always seem to be chasing.  I expect that there will be fear splashed in for that reminder of being human.

I’m ready.

Be Happy.  Be Well.  Be…That