…That the word of the day is “perception”?
Or I could easily subtitle the entry: “Be careful to what you listen to (especially when its in your own head?)”
I love the moments when I stop, breath, smile and remember that there is always another way to look at literally anything in the world. Granted it is not always easy to grasp the nature of an alternate view, but it is ALWAYS an option. We always have the choice to change a thought, a habit, a response or the very direction we are taking within our lives.
Perception is not always about drastic change in thought or action, however… but spiritually it could make all the difference in the world regarding the way we feel about ourselves and the moment by moment existence we are experiencing.
How I look at or perceive a situation, be it the way something has been said, done (or not done), or a piece of my reality which claims priority within my very busy and active mind…it is not always what it seems. That isn’t to say that I am always wrong… simply that I may not always be right and a review is in order. The lesson is in where I put the full importance and how I hinge that upon the state of my entire being.
The last statement was written with slight dramatic flair on purpose. It is in many cases a point in contention for the way I will pour priority into active thought and allow something that is simply not as important in the grand scheme to become the reigning purpose for being.
One of the things that has been a confusion in my years has been a highly intuitive sense. I know when something is happening… or when things are about to happen or change. This is a gift that is often mishandled and mislabeled. Intuitive nature is not necessarily a psychic sensibility. I do not predict the future by any means (although there was that dream the night before Elvis Presley died…) Intuition means ONLY that I sense a difference. Being that I am also sober as a judge (I ask myself sometimes if a drink or a joint every now and again may not actually be key ingredients that will stop the constant wheel turning. Could it really be that bad??) I am highly AWARE of these shifts in “perception” within people and environments around me. When I do I then do what a sober, creative writing, emotionally responsive Piscean will do: I create scenarios without even knowing that the process has begun.
That should be a master plan for a magnificent series of short stories, a twisting-turning screenplay or a novel with options for a series.
Instead what it can become is a series of answers built on fears of past failures that undermine logic and common sense. Now where this paints the picture of an unstable lunatic I would hardly fit that description. Instead I give you a real live, honest and loyal human being dead set on making sure that the path in front of him is the best possible one created.
And this is where the perception becomes important. I crave communication. It was never highly available to me in earlier more shut off years. When I am craving communication it is usually to combat creating answers to questions myself. Asking questions is an amazing gift. Seeking answers is the sign of a person who wants to learn and better themselves. I am that person and I am proud that I seek. But the important thing I must remember is to look at and weigh the options of the answers that are around me… whether created, spun, gossiped or hard-to-handle realities. Whatever I do, see, hear or feel is multi-faceted and amazing. One common response or reaction, whether verbal or held within is only that. To stop and remember that it is all different in the eyes of others, and in turn, my own eyes. Everything can be viewed in positives, negatives and everywhere in between. All of this is part of the mystery of my own intuitive nature.
I am not afraid of change. So I must repeatedly ask myself what I am actually afraid of. The answer for this intuitive is the unknown. Tell me what the change is and I will digest and regroup. Leave me to just know it is out there and I will seek the answers. It is who I am and if I don’t accept it I will hold myself in contempt and assume myself less of a human being than others I am around. Simply not so.
My perception is that even in moments that may not appeal to others… I am strong in recognition of the process. I think my way into things… and think my way out. I strive and succeed in everything I do. I do that because I can. I do this because perception of the result is positive.
And I remember as a good friend told me today. No matter what SEEMS to be “wrong” or out of place in a moment. No matter what it is that might cause me fear or dis-comfort. I am afforded all of these feelings as a human being LIVING. In my life there have been many around me who would love to be in these shoes today.
Be Happy. Be Well. Be